The basic understanding for me was that all misery comes from either craving, aversion or ignorance. We want what we don't have, we don't like where we at with what is or we see things not as they are and make wrong assumptions or are unwilling to gain a new point of view.
It was always a believe of mine that all disease and every problem needs to be eliminated from the root or else it comes back. So no treating of the symptoms but treating the cause. Its also said and clear thanks to this beautiful technique that you only gain wisdom through experience. So you can have the smartest quotes and talk and debate the biggest insights, if you have not gone through it by feeling and observing your own body and mind complex, it is pretty much not giving you the tool to live that wisdom fully.
I have been focusing on a lot on soul-searching, healing and self reflection all my life but this has gotten me very deep, very fast.
You are silent the whole time to avoid lies and also to not compare your process with others and distort the experience that way or raise even more expectation. Also its all about you and talking divides your precious focus.
It can be quite depressing to work so hard with no immediate obvious mind-blowing changes. Here is the teaching though, stay with it without craving any outcome, enlightenment or a full-blown kundalini awakening. Not saying it won't happen though ;) Learn to be with what is! Not with how you want it to be, with WHAT IS! (in Goenkas words)
Also stick with it even if every cell is screaming to get out, your is body hurting and your ego is working its best tricks to make you stop.
Its a truly individual experience every time, even for the same person its different each time, I have been told. I guess its where you at in life and what you need at the moment. Some simply come to get rid of back pain or migraines. My idea is a bit bigger. Making sure I get out of suffering and make a positive impact to those around me. Ideally this is my last life and I can retire to eternity.
Having a 7 Month old Baby this experience was one of the best things I could have done for me and my family. I am sure the little one has had some rough times without her Mom but it is not comparable to what she got back when I returned. Dad is fully capable to do the Job and I believe a good portion of detachment is rather good for any relationship. The relationship with my husband has truly deepened and the even grater understanding for each other proves clearly that it is always ME to look at and never the other person!
People come with all kinds of gifts like Anger, Manipulation, Negativity. You can send them home at let them take their gifts with them or take them and give them 5 back.
It was so hard for me to realize that my mind seems to be addicted to aversion. Whenever I had a free minute with my monkey mind at the retreat ( so when it was not with my breath or the sensations of the body) I started being mad about how this person did this or that to me and how wrong that was and how they all should meditate and reflect more on them and that they seem to understand nothing. I thought about how I will explain life to them once I got out of this noble act of living like a monk for 10 days. Quite late I realised after working Patient and Persistently (in Goenkas words) that we are constantly bombarded with impressions that we either find pleasant or unpleasant and it is on us how we react. The further I understood every time we react to one sensation we create a deeper habit called "samkaras". Only way to get rid of them is not to create new ones and observe whatever comes up.
You letting Dr. Consciousness turn its Flashlight on you and darkness won't even have to be forced or dragged out. Where there is light, where we can see there is no more darkness.
Meditation purifies the mind and body and they are connected. So if I healed a trauma it was in Body and Mind. I can tell by how I meditated away my "Problemzones" , opened my Body to new movements and fixed little pains and misalignments. In the meantime my panics and worries about certain things in the mind stopped. This is said to be the Technique that the Buddha practiced to reach the liberation of the Soul, enlightenment or simply the fact that you won't be reborn into another body with the same darn issues you left your old one with.
After the retreat and during, I ate Vegan to cause as little harm to others as possible. Its Universal Law- Harm others and be miserable or help others and be happy makes sense and I can feel it from experience.
After every session of Vipassana there is a Meta Meditation, manifesting that all beings may be free happy and at peace and not just saying but feeling this with all your heart. It made me cry like a Baby on the last day and it is very healing. I send quite a bit of Meta to Trump and all other poor souls that obviously are tortured. Truly the only way not to end up without poison in your heart is to have compassion and not multiply hate and anger by feeling it additionally in yourself. That won't change or help anyone.
I will sit now every day and meditate because so far I have not found a valid reason why not. Namaste Sue
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